The thing I really hate right now

An issue of the Chidera Peters' Dispatch (CPD)

Hey, I’ve missed you, and I mean it. I missed writing to you last week because I was ill. I was a bit unstable on Sunday evening and couldn’t draft an email. I hate that I’ve been inconsistent lately with this newsletter, but I ask that you bear with me. Life’s been very unpredictable lately. But I hope you’re doing fine and staying hydrated.

A random picture from my trip to Santorini, Greece

To be honest, I’m not sure where to start. I don’t have an outline for this email, but there’s A LOT going through my mind. I’ve noticed lately that I’m almost always thinking. Even when I lay in bed, I find myself struggling to quiet my mind. And most times, I’m thinking about work, as there’s always one more thing to do - one more email, one more order to follow up on, one more invoice to submit, one more meeting to schedule, one more document to draft, one more budget to manage etc. I’d be lying if I say I haven’t been insanely stressed, and I don’t like it.

I’m at a point where I’m struggling to strike a work-life balance. And it’s such a weird place to be because this is something I’ve always been intentional about. I barely have time to do anything else. I am almost always working, and yes, even on weekends. Not just a few weekends but almost every weekend since the beginning of May. This “busyness” has affected other areas of my life as well - I no longer have time to create content, I don’t give as much attention to my side hustles, I don’t have time to work out, or even if I do, I’m too exhausted to do anything, my eating schedule has been thrown out of sync. And as I said earlier, I hate it.

I travelled to Santorini, Greece, for a short vacation and even on this trip, I found myself working because there were a few things I needed to close on that weekend. And I really hate that I had to work.

I’m trying to make changes. I intend to speak to my manager regarding my workload to find a way to lessen it or get someone to help. I’ve been in deep thought, asking myself if I want to continue working a 9 to 5 or do my own thing. Doing my own thing means taking a chance on myself, and I’m not gonna lie; it’s scary. How do I ensure I earn as much as I do from my job now or even more? I know I can, but it’s the how that isn’t clear to me. Anyway, the point is I’m at a crossroads with decision-making.

Also, this “busyness” hasn’t given me the time to plan the women-only event I’ve been talking about since forever. At this point, I’m beginning to sound like a broken record. And this - this lack of balance in my life is what I really hate right now.

I’m realising that this email is sort of sounding like a mini rant, lol. That’s because this situation is the main thing occupying my mind. If you’ve read up to this point, thank you. I’ll stop here. Hopefully, I can get back to writing emails that provide value to you.

📹 New Youtube Video

Travel With Us to Santorini, Greece! Room Tour, Seafood Dinner, Grocery Shopping

Till next week, please drink lots of water and use sunscreen.

-XOXO Chidera